In sickness and in health

Taking care a growing child is SUPER.TOUGH.

I have to admit.

I really thought it couldn't get tougher than it is but it did. Especially when they got sick.

Oh dear. The worry. The laundry. The throw-ups. The I-don't-wan't-to-eat-anything-I-want-mommy's-breast-only. The upsets. The clingy-ness. And everything in between oh the horror.

Mostly it's really sad seeing your lil one so helpless not able to breathe properly because of the accumulated flu and mucus. As a mom we really wished we can suck them all out from that tiny nose and make it all go better.

Baby Wil have been sick for almost 2 weeks now. The first week he caught a virus from the nursery. Then he was okay for a few days all chirpy and giddy ready to play. But then caught an even worst virus after we got back from visiting my cousin in sheffield. Her kids were sick at that time. I honestly got it now why some mothers can be super protective that they refused to let their kids get in close contact with even a slight sick person. I foresee myself being that kind of a person in the future. No way I'm gonna let my baby get near a sick person.

*sigh. I'm no fun anymore.

The GP told me that it's okay for a baby to be sick with common cold. It's part of growing up and building their immune system. But I guess no mom wants to see their kids sick right? So we shall try our best to take care.

Motherhood teaches you a lot of things.

Because right now it teaches me to be patient.

Dear Mommy

Dear mommy,

Everyday i watch you so busy running the house. It's fun watching and trying to copy you on your every move. You laughed when i try but I guess that's normal for a baby. I get so curious with everything. It's like the activities at home are never ending.

One of my favourite activity is hovering the carpet with a machine called vacuum. At least that's what you call it although i have no idea what vacuum means. I just know you'll be rushing to the hallway, opening a huge door and inside there is was. A huge machine with 2 wheels and a very long tail. Sometimes i made you mad by playing with the door and going inside the store room where the machine is kept. You said it's dirty but i just thought it's fun. When you're ready to vacuum, you pulled a long cable from the machine and plugged it on the wall. Then i know which button to press next. But everytime i press a loud noise come out from the machine and it freaks me out i'll be running to you for a hug. Then all would be alright. You said there are a lot of vacuum cleaning types and styles sold here at John Lewis.

Another one of my favourite activity in the house is cooking. The house smells heaven when you cook. I hate baby food. I want curry and lamb. Oh yes. You heard me. It amazes me how you can cook in a very short time. You said you used another loud machine that makes your life easier. I know because i can hear it miles away. The machine can chop onion or whatever and it won't teared your eyes. And you love it. It saves time too. I think it is called chopper or food processor and it's essential for mom who wants to save time. You said food processors are easily available online here waiting to find a home.

It's fun mom. Everything seems new, exciting and i want to explore all. But for now i think i'll just eat my toes to find out what they taste like

Love

Your baby Wilwil

A mom's life: Diary #1

Before I became a mother, I could not imagine myself a maternal person.

I was always busy occupying most of my time with work, travels, friends and activities. I Couldn't imagine myself taking care a helpless tiny demanding human being. And cleaning up poop? Euuww (it's still euww though even after 1 year being a mom)

Although I married earlier than most of my friends, becoming a mom was a difficult decision for me. I mean, what if i'll lose my old life? What if I'll lose most of my activity times?

Let me tell you this. YOU WILL LOSE. No more date night. No more strolling the streets of London on weekend nights. No more shopping peacefully. No more dining without interruption. 

And the not so best part. No more sleeping through the night. T_T

Try opening your laptop to do work or reply even 1 email in front of your 1 year old. I'll impress myself if I can even finished writing 1 word.

But all this in a good way of course. :) I don't know why. But it does.

Taking care a tiny you is just so satisfying. Seeing him smiling after feeding him lunch. Hearing the sound of his super cute laughter when you make funny faces. Ohh my god. Totally melts your heart away.

Now. All I could think of is my child wellbeing. His lifestyle. His surrounding. What type of clothes is he wearing. Is he comfortable? Should I buy 100% cotton? I can't shop. I need to save for his college fund.

It's like our life is not our own anymore. Literally.

Not to mention changing the bedsheet every 2 days. Thank god mom's here, she can't stand not doing housework so she did all the laundry. Without her I think I might bugged Fairuz to bring us out to buy new bedsheet every 2 days. 

I'm not kidding!

*gasped!! No Mommy I'm not messing your kitchen. I'm cleaning it for you.

Baby Wilwil poorly

For the past few days have been quite stressful. Baby Wil got poorly because he went to the nursery and he was throwing up a lot to a point he was almost dehydrated. He can't keep anything down his tummy. Nekma had to do a lot of laundry due to this. He was crying the whole day and it was super heartbreaking for a mom.

So we went to the GP and turned out he his throat was red and there was an infection. So the Dr prescribe him an antibiotic. Alhamdulillah he was able to sleep a bit okay the night he took the medication compare to the night before.

This Wednesday we have nursery again and I am worried that he might catch another horrible bug. Does any of you experience this? Your baby got sick when sent to the nursery? And does it keeps happening?

No no Mummy

God knows I've been spending a lot of my time on instagram nowadays. With work pilling up and juggling being a mommy, instagram is just so easy to updates. Not to mention seeing all pretty square photos online is just sometimes can make one smiles. It's social media rave for 2013. So catch me on instagram if you guys have one. It's fun!

It scares the crap out of me thinking and realising how time flies crazily fast these days. Especially if you're a mom. Everything just seem to be...I don't know....just a glance. And puff! It's new year. And my god in a year or so i'm no more in my twenties. I hate that!

And baby Wilwil has already turned 1 year old!!! can you imagine?! This tiny little being was in my tummy for 9 months tapping his way around. Kicking my ribs strongly I sometimes cried. And now he's 1 and beginning to get awareness for his surroundings. He knows what he likes and what he doesn't. And it's so cute when he expressed his no no to something that he didn't like.

No no mummy.

He's also starting to know people and of course out of all, he prefers his mommy. hehe it's a wonderful feeling.

Tomorrow will be the first day of baby wilwil goes to playschool/nursery. I know I'm not working officially and I can actually do all my thesis work at home, but we're trying to give baby Wil a chance to socialised and have friends to play with. Encourage him to do stuff and learn sharing.

Awww.. My baby all grown up. Don't cry okay? It'll be alright and you'll have fun.

So this is how moms feel when sending off her baby to school.

Sad but proud.

My baby's milestones

Did I told you that baby wilwil is currently having a really bad flu? And teething as well? Oh yesss...  Every time I tried helping him to pat his nose away, he would scream. He gets even madder when I use a nasal aspirator. It drives me crazy not knowing what to do.

And I think he's starting to learn to express his feeling. He screams if he doesn't get what he wants. Thankfully he doesn't have a piercing scream. He also knows how to demand both Fairuz and I to open up the youtube. Seriously! At 9 months he's starting to love watching youtube and knows how to demand it.Though I think I'm quite lucky to be living in the UK where most of the junior's cartoon programs are total educational. I know, I watch! Nothing close to spongebob (thank god!) but more of like 1 2 3 maths and literature.

I'm also starting to notice he loves to hear stories. From any story teller. His attention time span is quite long as if he understands what's the story about. Apart from enjoys hearing songs, that's basically what he loves most. I try my best to surround him with books from the early age and making odd weird voices when reading books to him. He loves it.

My most fav of all is that he's already calling me "mumm mumm" at 8 months old. Especially when he wants milk.

He speaks a few vowels such as dada, tata and baba. It's beautiful. And amazing! I should take a video.

He grows up speedboat everyday it's quite hard to catch up with him. Being a mom is an adventure every single day.

Being a baby wilwil

I'm having trouble with coping and handling lil Wilwil for the past few days. He's been having and still have heavy flu and his teething is getting worst by the day. We can see his cute bunny rabbit teeth sticking our now. It's so cute! But the flu is so bad I feel so sad watching him gasping for air while breastfeeding.

He had minor temperature at the beginning of the flu bug. It started with Fairuz and now it has spread house-whole. I just hope I'll not get any sicker than I am right now. Believe me it's the most hardest thing taking care of a sick baby when you are sick as well.

On the positive side, sick baby simply means his immune system is developing. It also means the parent is developing her patience level.

Oh boy.

A friend said they need extra TLC than usual. I just hope that he'll get back to his usual self soon. I miss my happy go lucky baby!